Confession:  My name isn’t really Nikki.  But in an effort to protect my real identity, you will see my alter-ego in her true Angelina Jolie kicking-ass in Tomb Raider fashion.  Prince wrote a song about Nikki too – all about a woman taking charge and getting what she wants.  That’s me – or rather who I’m striving to be.

Truth be told, I’m a lover, not a fighter - which has actually gotten me into some trouble recently.  Right now, I’m in love with a man who I thought was my prince charming.  My hero.  I envisioned a future together that seemed more like fantasy than reality.  We love taking trips together, we have similar interests and we love to laugh!  We don’t fight and have been told by a lot of people – from my mom to a random flight attendant – that we’re just plain good together.  But it’s funny how when you start daydreaming and getting off track, something comes along and slaps you in the face!  I found out last month that he cheated on me – possibly in an effort to sabotage our relationship because he doesn’t believe he deserves good things in life.  Is that a load of psychobabble crap or what?  Maybe that’s just his excuse.  Maybe he really believes I’m too good for him.  Either way, he should’ve said something.

So we’re both in counseling trying to figure out if we have a future together.  I have abandonment issues and I’m codependent, among so many other things I’m sure.  He’s got self-esteem issues and really is just pretty much F’d up.  But enough about that – I don’t want to make this first entry a pity party!

This blog is entitled “What have I done for me lately?”  (Inspired by Miss Jackson if you’re nasty!)  In an effort to return the focus to what I need in my life and what makes me happy, I’m on a quest to do something for myself every day.  I deserve it!

Yesterday, I opened up a new savings account.  Each month, a small amount of money will be automatically transferred to my savings from my checking.  Call it my vacation account.  Call it my new Nikes when I need retail therapy account.  Whatever you call it, it’s all for me!  And I’ve done it for myself!

So today, I start my blog for me.  I intend to record the things I do for myself, the things I do to make me happy, and reminders of why I kick ass.  And like “The Secret” says, with the laws of attraction in my favor, pretty soon, I’ll be so thrilled with my life that I’ll only know drama as a category at Blockbuster.  From here on out, I’m all about me!!